October Witchy wrap up

October has been a very busy witchy month- lots acheived- cleansing and charging- crystals, the whole house, my work place and my sisters house. My sister gave me a Tibetan singing bowl for my birthday- so I chimed it in all the rooms to help lift the spirits. Samhain celebration with my son and his friends- lots of House decorating and Spooky cooking- then doing my own special ritual of remembrance for my ancestors and family , friends and pets passed- once the kids had all gone home or to bed.

I am feeling so much better- brighter- and am finding not only do I have time for my own special things- I like to do- but I have found more time to enjoy and join in the lives of my friends & family.

Happy Samhain- Happy New Year to all my Pagan- Witchy friends.

September witchy wrap up

Although I am back in the “Real World” I haven’t really returned- to the same me  that I was before my little “episode”. This is infact a good thing- I am finding myself a whole lot less stressed over things I have no or little control over. I can smile & carry on and if an obstacle- or issue arrives- one I can do nothing with personally- I am passing it on to the person who can- instead of bottling things up and trying to do somebody else’s job. Why I never listened to my partner who all this time- has said ” As long as you do your best in your job- let everyone else get on with their’s”.

So here I am still under Doctors orders- but am slowly weening off the med’s- listening to the good advise- protecting myself daily with a sheild of bright rainbow bubbles and generally being- feeling positive.

My interest in all my favourite hobbies has returned- I have more energy- find time passing slower when doing my favourite stuff too.  More me time and family time, witchy time- nature time.

So September- my birthday month has been a complete turn around from the beginning to its end and I feel I can now look to the future from a better perspective. I quite like the new Me!

A step in the right direction

So I have just done my first 3 day stint back in to work after 55 days away. Everyone was so pleased to see me back and I have felt very blessed and a little bit Molly Coddled. I am so grateful for the friendship & support my collegues have shown me- BUT the underlieing issues in the workplace itself are still bubbling away. My boss assured me all was in order, all issues or most where sorted. Although I have been in for only 3 days- having slid back so easily into my position- I have picked up on the vibes around me. The same vibes that pushed me out of sync.

So, the only thing at the moment – is to make sure I am well protected against all this negativity- try not to let the others bring me down. I can listen and offer solutions to my colleagues- but I always get too emtionally involved and take it to heart. I’m not ready for that again- not yet.

So without trying to seem heartless and unfriendly- I have been walking away, when backbiting starts, not allowing customers or colleagues to intimidate me and instead of rushing to fit in a day and a halfs work in a day!- Just doing my own days worth in that day. Oh and not taking work home with me.

Ultimately, I need to move on and in another direction- But whilst I have a job in this world recession- I need to keep it, until I can find some thing else.

Where all this will lead, I do not know. But I thank the Goddess for seeing me through and making me realise there are many good reasons for me to be around- My 2 children & wonderful hubby- my family & friends. The beautiful world we live in, mother nature and the magic all around us.

Dare I say -” I’m Back”

Well here I am, 7 months down the line, on my 5th week off work for severe depression- brought on by “WORK”. They have actually been very good about it- but is it because they have realised their shameless abuse of key members of staff. I would like to think “NO” that I am not just an anonymous number- but a vital cog in the wheel of work- that has lost a few teeth and gone to be mended.

My Doctor- advised go home do nothing unless you want to- if it causes any stress- stop it at once. Well that has been so much more difficult than you think.

 Don’t take calls from work! Not easy when you are the only one in the house and they keep leaving messages- but I managed to only call or answer twice- in 4 weeks.

Don’t let other family members stress you out! My partner has been so very supportive- but he does obviously have his own problems and who else does he turn to. He has developed a rather dense cataract in his left eye- easily treatable nowadays- but no he has uveitis- and they will not operate until this has cleared up. So he struggles with the fiddly bits for his fishing- which he then shouts at me for – because I’m not doing it right! I know- its just his frustration with himself.

My daughter has had her leaving cert exams and we have been worrying about the results- ( Or should I say I have) I just can’t switch off! not worry- not stress- typical Virgo!  Actually results are back and she has done exceptionally well. So now I’m angry at myself for wasting energy worrying in the first place.

So I have not been able to do much- my heart has not been in it- couldn’t even read a book- because I would get down half the page and have completely forgotten what I had just read. Meals have been very odd indeed- not only at some odd times as all I have been doing is sleeping-( nearly 15 hours in a day)- but if it all takes longer that half an hour- forget it- I’ve burnt stuff- forgotten stuff- missed out ingredients- put the wrong things in?

The Doctor prescribed pills of varying sorts- and only after 4 weeks- I finally found this awful feeling of impending dread & doom lifting somewhat.

So this is where I am now. Beginning to see the light- starting to interact calmly and slowly to the world around me- and really thinking – when an issue arises- is it my fault?- can I do anything about it? will this matter later/ tomorrow/ next week/ year?  No- it is not my fault and if I can’t do anything- Just say ” Hi and Bye”. Acknowledge- dismiss- forget- move on. Well at least that is my theory and bit by bit I am going to put it in to practise.

I have to make a change in my worklife- but the timing isn’t really right- but I am beginning to wake up and listen to my body- my intuition- my callings to the Goddess- the path is beginning to clear and will inevitably change direction.

Look to the future- but dont miss today-take it easy- enjoy the journey whereever the destination.

2008 Blog Wrap Up.

Well- where to begin-As 2008 fades away and we are now into new beginnings- new year 2009- clean slate and all that. I have to take stock- re-evaluate- and adapt. My wonderful partner- to whom I became handfasted with in February this year- Has been literally thrown on the scrap heap at the young age of 52! He has become permanently disabled and so my priorities have had to change.  I need more time – on my days off work- to care & look after himself & my family- so computer time must be cut ( I am an addict) to the computer that is!!!. I am so grateful for all the fellow bloggers I have met and wish everyone the very best for 2009.  Just to say- I will be leaving my blogpage- and concentrating on homelife- due to the changing circumstances. I will still be popping into whitewicca.com. Hope to keep intouch- one way or another. Much love & light.Brightest Blessings.

Joining in the festivities.

In my immediate family and also not so immediate- there are only 2 pagans- one being myself & I am Wiccan. The other my younger sister who is very eclectic indeed. Our families are well aware of our chosen paths and altho may be don’t understand all the in ’s & out’s are happy for us – because we are happy. When it comes to the festivities of this particular season-  I had my own Solstice celebration on Sunday- which my family were involved in at some points during the day and now we are at christmas eve- and I will be involved in all that christmas entails with my family- ( I am the one who cooks) ( decorates) ( cleans) etc etc. Whatever religion- following- sharing in the joy and the celebrations with your nearest & dearest is the spirit of the season. Live & let live- an harm it none- thy will be done. Happy Yuletide.

Yule is soon upon us

Well, altho the last couple of months have been a painful depressing blur- they are just a memory and the road to recovery and normality is at hand. My family, My friends, My partner and many many people, myself included have had a tough old time of it. So it is always heartening to hear from old friends and catch up with distant family at this time of year. The net- altho not as personal- has actually helped me to find lost contacts aswell as be in touch with family members more often- via e’mail etc. I posted all my cards- all recycled- or from sustainable sources. I will be sending my Solstice/Yule e’cards on Sunday-to my fellow pagans- and my christmas e’cards to family & friends- christmas eve.  The intent to send out love & joy to nearest & dearest no matter how its done- always fills me with love & joy- the more I send out- the happier I feel and it is infectious too. Just like a smile. So thank the Goddess my optimism & joy for life is returning- I was beginning to depress myself a while back. Wishing you all a fabulous Yule and Merry Christmas and Happy New Year too.

Longnight Fullmoon- or Full Cold Moon

A quiet ritual of peace & tranquility was in order this evening- after so much negativity and illness around us- some respite was a blessing. During my meditation- I felt emotional- weepy- then in my warm little room- I began to feel enveloped in peace & warmth and a calmness all around. Slowly beginning to feel once again in control of my life- really looking forward to quality family time this Yuletide and starting to tick of the items on the long list of still to do’s. One step at a time- each day – One step at a time. Brightest Blessings.

Where’d the time go?

Already its the 5th of December- A whole month has flown by- the Flu episode was just after Halloween and allsorts of things have happened. The recession has hit hard in the UK & Ireland- as it has across the world. My father has been made redundant- my partner is now on permanent disability- my work hours have been cut- and a whole host of harsh negative vibes are going on all around. All we can do is go with the flow- what will be will be- take it day by day a step at a time. It is however difficult to be the optimist- but thankfully I have my partner- my children- my family & friends and letting it out- discussing the emotions- sharing these lows & the highs- it really helps. With the coming Yuletide celebrations and the time we will be spending with our familys- I am so thankful for the joy that this brings- and I hope that everyone finds joy & happiness this Yule. Brightest Blessings.

Still playing catch up!

Since Samhain eve- I have been floored by a “FLU” type bug and have been fit for nothing. Now altho I am much recovered- I find I have a ton of stuff that was neglected or put aside to plow thru- including telling all about Samhain and last nights Beavers Full Moon. So I must prioritise and alocate time to all pressing matters- upload some photo’s & share my expriences. Much better Brightest Blessings.

Brightest Blessings This Taurus Full Moon night.

Whatever you call this full moon night- Beavers or Frost or Snow full moon and also The Hunters moon- which is another name for the October full moon too- Whatever you call it in your part of the world- Brightest Blessings and much love & light for your ritual. I seem to have shaken the flu- but am still feeling weak so mine will be one of quiet gentle reflection & meditation.

Funny New Year

Samhain celebrations complete- House back in order after the childrens party- But since Sunday- I have been down with a bug- hence non or little activity on here. Also dealing with an unsightly skin rash- the culprit- our new washing liquid ( at least I think). Went back to work today and they sent me home- I looked so bad. Not the rash- thats out of sight- just the pale skin & really dark circles under the eyes.

So unproductive- I so want to get on with all my new year plans and I have zero energy to start. So far now- I’ll just keep on with the Hot Toddy’s- Hot water bottle- comfy duvet and rest. It can’t go on forever.

Cake Baking

Well- sooner than you think- the festive season will be upon us. So I have just baked my christmas cake- well it does need at least 8 weeks to mature and have a weekly feed of brandy. This year it took well over 2 hours to pull out the stalks and nobbles- despite buying quality fruit. But it is therapeutic and allows the mind a breather from the pressures of the day. So now on to the delicacies for the Samhain celebrations on Friday. Brightest  Blessings.

” Tag” – ” You’re it”.

Oh what fun- I have been double tagged by Mary at   http://tea-sympathy-and-perfume.blogspot.com/ and also The Green Witch at http://wiccanwanderings.wordpress.com/. Some wonderful fun in the blog world. So here goes with the rules- and then followed by the fun part- stuff that few people if any, know about me.

1. Link to the person or persons who tagged you. (Affirmative)

2. Post the rules on your blog. (Affirmative)

3. Write six random things about yourself. (See below)

4. Tag six people at the end of your post and link to them. (See further below…)

    (Their links, you will find in my blogroll- topright of page)

5. Let each person know they’ve been tagged and leave a comment on their blog.( Affirmative)

6. Let the tagger/ taggers know when your entry is up. (Affirmative)

 

    My Grandfathers Uncle was Captain Webb- the first man to swim across the English Channel.

    I suffer from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder- which I have been told by my onlooking family is quite funny- to watch- It doesnt seem like that to me! At work they just think I’m obsessed with tidyness! But my work space is MY WORKSPACE and woe betide any one who messes with it- I can’t help it!

    I believe in Fairies and other magical creatures- I have at least one in the house and many in the garden. They do not show themselves but I know they are there. They live along side us on another level.

    I write and have written small articles that have been published in papers & magazines. I also write poetry and then choose a favourite hymn or tune to sing it along to. My current fav tune is ” We plough the fields & Scatter” to which I have written a poem of Thanks.

    Throughout my Adult life I have had relationships with both men & women- I can see/ appreciate the beauty and the foibles in both.

    I have a spent a small fortune in Orchids- that are now growing around my house- I adore them. I once paid £75- for a very small Masdevalia- which is still small and has never flowered. Ever the optimist.

 Now the 6 blogs I wish to tag.

FOX- at Unveiling of a pagan spirit.

one of my favourite and a dear friends blog spots.

Lisa- the tribal Witch.

Such wonderful craft work.

Leanne- at Somerset seasons.

Makes me so want to live in Somerset.

 Willow the Beautiful1 – at My Place.

love to catch up with this blog everyday

Thalia- at Amused Grace.

I look forward to checking in to this blog.-, to catch up & refresh my knowledge of the Goddess. The art work is fantastic.

Marya- at African Alchemy.

Such humour and detail of life in Marya’s part of the world- almost feel like I’m there.

All of the blogs above and infact all my fellow bloggers across in the blogroll are there because they are my friends and I love to keep in touch with them and share their lives along with mine- its a wonderful tangled web of life. Lets blog on & on.

My Wonderful walk in nature.

Parked the car- opened the door on a cool crisp october morning. Bright an early- around 8- sun not yet thru – but painting the thin wispy layer of clouds in pinks, orange & lemons and up ahead the incline took me thru low growing cotoneaster- with shiny green dewy leaves and bright red jewel berries- and the red leaves of the Photinia blowing and swaying lazyly in the breeze. The blackbird giving a warning call- The robin singing happily greeting the dawn-In the fields to the right the Cows beginning to rise and the mist coming up from the warm ground where they had slept. A faint aroma from the many apples in the apple tree orchard to the left and up above the moon once full- now slowly waning- but brightly shining down on another working day. This is the joy that greets me every morning when I have parked my car at my workplace and walk up the little hill. All the wonders of the nature around me on the journey to & from and my daily walk- set me up for the day. Brightest Blessings